Anxiety, quitting my job, and starting my own buisness

When it came to work I had to make the biggest decision ever. Do I go back???

Can I afford to go back and pay for nursery? 

Do I want to be working 8.30-7.30 all week and weekends and on call all night? 

Do I want to leave Logan and go to work? 

Leave Logan for more than ten minutes? Can I really do that? 

No

Do I want to do that? 

No 

In my job I wasn't offered to cut my hours down. Not that I expected to. When I handed my notice in I didn't even get a reply or even a phone call, my boss has no respect for his colleagues! The only problem was that I LOVED my job, I worked the last 7 years to get were I was. I love animals and couldn't imagine not working with them everyday...

That was until I had Logan, this tiny helpless boy who just wants his mummy, not some nursery all day because we don't have family around here, well I have some of Lukes family, but I couldn't bare to leave Logan with anyone let alone people I'm not related too. 

Iv only ever left Logan with my parents and my sister and even then after a few hours I miss him so much I start to panic. There's no way I can go back to work. 

So. I quit 

It was a hard choice as how were we going to afford to stay at home!!??? 

I still don't have the answer to that question yet, were still figuring it out. 

Iv cut a lot out of what I spend, Iv swapped to shopping at aldi, Iv cut out snacks and take aways. I'm trying really hard. Sometimes though you just need a little bit of pocket money each week to get out the house. 

So I started a buisness. I had to put a lot of money to get it set up. And even now I haven't made as much as I spent, but I enjoy what I'm doing, Iv always been quite an art person so to be making things for people and knowing that something I have made is in someone's house somewhere, for their babies or them home makes me feel amazing! Hopefully one day soon I'll make back as much as I spent! 🙈 and then maybe I will have enough money to go to play groups each week and do nice things at weekend. Or more than that just afford my food shop each week! 

Iv kept my buisness identity a secret as I didn't want to be judged etc. But then I think meh. Why not?! Maybe people will trust the buisness more if they know the person behind it. So here is my confession ;) 

My buisness is on Instagram and its 'HandMadePersonalTreasures' 

I make personalised buntings and plaques for houses or nurserys or presents and I enjoy it so much!!! Hopefully one day I can branch out and do more! But for now I'm happy just making things without making a profit because I have faith that one day I will be able to sell more widely and hopefully people will share and buy from me :)