I don't entirely remember how you used to be, it feels like a lifetime a go but yet also like the last year has gone way to fast, but at the same time like Iv never been without you!
Your currently asleep on my chest, you sleep in your cot for naps now so this feels amazing that you woke up and came down to sleep on mummy.
Last night we couldn't find your lavender shampoo (probably because you hide everything) hehe. So I used your old one. The one in the Orange bottle, it smelt like baby Logan and suddenly I remembered baby Logan in his bath.
One night one of your first baths you pulled your own hair soooo hard it pulled your scalp and you cried so bad! It broke my heart but after a nice mummy cuddle you fell asleep and were happy again. You hated baths for a little bit but you love them now! (Until daddy gets the shower head!)
Lying on me now I can smell your hair. Just yesterday you were a baby. Here I am with a fully committed toddler lying on my chest.
I never imagined I would be a good mum. I would run a mile from kids, but my god, you've changed me into an amazing mum and sometimes I can even stand other people's kids lol.
Stop growing so fast baby.
What I would give to have our first day again, just to hold you again and really appreciate that that moment wasn't going to last forever. It really doesn't.
I love you Logan Andrew. Your my world and I promise to never hurt you or make you hate me.
If I say you can't have sweets it's probably because I'm doing a yummy meal.
If I say it's time to come in its probably because it's dark outside and I want you to be safe inside.
Everything I do will be with you in mind. Your literally the most important person in my world.
Gosh. How will you be 1 already 😢
I need to wipe the tears away now and kiss you and hold you because soon I won't have a baby to hold. Before I know it you'll be leaving home and I won't get peppa pig cuddles in the mornings or milk cuddles at night.
I love you Logan. Slow down your growing please :( xxxxxx
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